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Monday, November 19, 2012

I'm finally reviving my blog!

Alright It's been almost a year since I've blogged and I've got a sudden urge to update my blog since Os is finally over.

This year hasn't been such an easy and smooth one with all the challenges ahead for all the sec 4s. The big Os was tying me down and I could really feel the stress back then. However, I'm very thankful for those around me who have given me support throughout this tough period.

During this year, I befriended my HCL teacher. It all started during the class outing at ECP after cross country in February. Got to know her better then and I really felt guilty about not liking her at the start of sec 3 just because nine of us didn't get to be taught by lmk LOL ridiculous I know. I can still remember her saying something like 你们应该给我一个机会去教你们，今天是我第一天见到你们，你们怎么可以这样？Okay that was what I roughly remembered. I admit our attitude that day wasn't that good cos nine of us weren't at all pleased that we were once again separated from our class without any reason (just like what happened in PE). So I didn't really enjoy HCL lessons in sec 3. It was until the end of year HCL lesson extensions then I started to feel a lil guilty because we could see the effort that she put in to prepare us well for the upcoming CL Os paper. And we realised how lucky we were to get her as our teacher and not others. My HCL no doubt improved a lot since she took over and I'm really relieved :) Texting her seems like that norm because I could tell her anything that I just couldn't confide in others. I got so used to texting her like how I text my friend that when I sent a text to mrsloo, saying, "Hey we reach discussion room already! :)", mrsloo was saying, "Wah I your friend ah?" Oops. So Os is finally over. After the super hectic second week, though I was left with HCL in 4 days and all the 3 sciences MCQ in more than a week, I told myself I could slack now though there's only HCL for that week because I needed to do well for it and couldn't bear to let csm down. We're her first batch of sec 4s so the more we couldn't let her worry so much. But I think I didn't do well for that paper. Oh well at least I tried my very best already and I know that is all that she needs from us :)

16.11.12. The day everyone has been looking forward to. End of Os and start of graduation ceremony. Words really couldn't describe how relieve and happy I was though I think I screwed bio mcq that day -.- Hmm I expected graduation ceremony to be all fun and exciting with performances lined up for us. But it ended up being real dull and SUPER STUFFY. Class by class going up to receive their certs, with 2 acapella and 1 teacher's performance in between not forgetting videos and photo montages. I think the only interesting part was the videos. Everyone were all caught up with taking photos together and no one seemed to care what was happening on stage LOL. Enjoyed the last part of the ceremony when our whole class went up on stage to sing our class song together. Seven of us were with mike, including me. Though I like singing but I've never sang on the stage before and live somemore. It was kinda cool but the echoes were horrible I couldn't even hear myself all I heard were the echoes so at first I thought my mike spoil -.- And after the performances I received a text from siaohui saying that the song was good and she could hear my voice. Amanda too, said that the song was nice and she also added that she could only hear my voice omg did I sing that loud LOL. Great experience indeed :)

Wanted to head over to old airport road for dinner that night but kylin jiayu and weiqin wanted to head home and only the guys were going so yeah, didn't join them for dinner. Was really hungry because I only ate 3 mouth full of noodles at the reception. So had noodles at home cooked by ahma :)

And for the next day, I did nothing except watching catchup tv for the 7 and 9pm shows that I missed during mcq and also started watching secret garden hehehe. Life is really great man I can just nua around for as long as I want without feeling guilty or anything heh :)

Yesterday we had a really big surprise for jean and jiayu and jiayu's house. We told jiayu we were celebrating jean's birthday and told jean we were celebrating jiayu's birthday! So end up when the cake was here, both of them were like saying to each other, "Happy birthday!!" and "No it's your birthday, not mine!" So everything was damn epic :P We managed to trick them alright! Great day yesterday.

Today was secret garden again and it was finally the part where they switched body. I laughed like mad infront of the com screen man too hilarious! But now I got a lil bored so I can't believe it but, I'm at miniclip playing games -.- And here I am on blogger because I was bored with miniclip too. At least I'll be out everyday this week starting from tomorrow. Ah boys to men, ewf and getting rings tmrw with jiamin, back to cca on wed, class chalet on thurs and fri. LIFE'S GOOD :)

Alright, shall stop here. Super lengthy post oops.

♥Jolene 4:59 PM

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Great Day!

Great day today. Buffet lunch at Brio's Cafe @ Grand Copthorne for a start! Quite worth it I guess! :) Met Ben for the first time today. He seems to be a nice guy heh he keep making fun of my sis with us yay :P More towards chinese speaking! But I'm totally fine with that so long he treats my sis well :) Had fun joking with him too. Nice guy, lucky sis! :) Hope now he'll send her home when they go out since he has already met us today. I think I'm like 5cm shorter than him HAHAHAHA but he's just right for my sis!

After that headed to tamp to get shoes for cheryl before going for dinner and catching 一泡而红 again since ahma, mum and cheryl have not caught it yet. Still funny the second time!

Gz camp tmrw and thursday for me, so excited! Hahaha first time sec threes planning everything and in charge of everything for camp stress sia hahahaha hope everything will go well and as planned! Short post today cos I'm really lazy to elaborate stuff and I'm super tired now too :X Goodnight!

♥Jolene 11:28 PM

Monday, December 12, 2011

A Blessing in Disguise

Finally got back gz results today. Was totally worrying for the whole day. Tr vicky said that she'll collect the results at 1+ and I told her to tell me my results after she collect and she said okay. So when it was 1+ I didn't get a sms from her. 2+, nothing. 3+ 4+ 5+ still nth. I was really nervous by that time so decided to text her. Then it hit me again. I got a pass with 78 marks. I admit I was really down at that time. Although I was still outside with val and xw, I couldn't help but be abit dao :/ Val keep telling me don't sad don't sad but I wasn't just sad, I was very disappointed. Sh, siaohui and yt kept texting me to comfort me and surprisingly this time I didn't feel like crying. (maybe I'm wiped dry) My heart just felt really heavy that's all.

After taking notes/books from val at her house, headed home. Tr vicky texted me and her words totally comforted me alot and put my heart at ease. Lian xi qu 19/20, cdxj 29/40 and hxq 30/40. Lian xi qu totally did me proud this time, almost perfection! The other two songs were disappointing though :/ Hmm one of the comments was that my feeling wasn't good. For hxq how can I have feelings when the examiners told me to start from kuai ban lol -.- And I didn't know what went wrong with my cdxj :/ Oh well it's over!!!! Tr vicky told me to learn from past experiences and that we've got to learn to let go. This is to make sure that my students won't suffer like me next time. And also setting an achievable goal. Maybe I thought too lightly of diploma grade cos I really didn't expect it to be that harsh. The higher I aimed, the more I fell hard. She went through this before to, so she's just the right person who can tell me these and make me learn from all these shit. Felt really good after that and I totally cheered up. She's always giving me good advices and teach me stuff outside gz context. Really cherish her presence and I'm really glad that I met her. Pouring out my troubles to her whenever needed, she doesn't find it a nuisance too but instead, try her best to cheer me up once again with her funny antics :) Through this (disappointing and painful) experience, I felt that she knows me better now and we got closer too. Why didn't we have all these fun earlier when I was still taking my previous grades but only happen now when I'm done taking all my grades? It's a pity I'm only going to take up a few more lessons from her on how to teach other students. But anyway, it's better late than never. This experience is really a blessing in disguise for me. Really learnt alot from her :) Thanks tr vicky love you alot! :)

♥Jolene 11:00 PM

Saturday, December 10, 2011

Greatest disappointment

Before my gz exam I told myself on fb : With expectations comes disappointments. I'm just gonna do my best and not aim at anything. Easier said than done. Inside me, I was still aiming for a distinction. Yes tr vicky did say that for diploma it's very hard to get a distinction and maybe even a pass. But she herself got a distinction for her diploma and I looked her upon as a role model.

I was totally cranky today when I woke up and just barked at anyone who talked to me. Especially in the afternoon. Didn't have the mood to do anything. Tried doing emaths homework to distract me but apparently my hands keep trembling and my mind was on my phone. When was she going to call me? I kept asking myself that. Whatsapp-ed siaohui and we were both super nervous for the results. When I was bathing, I was also thinking about her calling me. But apparently it didn't happen. It just didn't. Hours went by and still there wasn't any call from tr vicky so we decided to text her. All her replies ended with a :D. I asked her : No calls yet? :( She replied : Ya lo... :D I didn't get why she replied with a smiley behind. I told myself there was still hope. But reality struck me when siaohui said that tr vicky told her that only one of her students got a distinction. Grade 8 girl. I texted tr vicky to double check and yes it was the truth. I told her how sad I was and was on the verge of tears already but she didn't comfort me at all and still ended her texts with a smiley. I was really confused then and was comforting myself by telling myself that maybe she's keeping something from us cos she doesn't seem to be sad over our results. Last year me and siaohui were her only students who got distinction and this year there was only one. So why was she still so happy? That was the thing that I did not understand. Neither did siaohui. So I told myself it's time to give up hope. There wasn't even that 1% chance that I could get a distinction anymore. It was my last chance, last go at it and I blew it. I totally blew it. Friends starting texting and comforting me but apparently all those made me feel worse and I couldn't help but cry. Didn't wanna let my mum see me in that state so I kept going to the toilet. It was when she came and sat beside me and asked me if the results were out then I broke down infront of her. She said that I was siao cos tr vicky said that it really wasn't easy to achieve a distinction in diploma, and that the fact that I already got a distinction last year for my grade 9 was already a very good achievement cos those that took grade 9 this year didn't get a distinction at all. I guess no one will understand. It's easy for them to say all these cos they never even went through this before. It just means so much to me..

Tmrw will be the release of the remaining results as well as the distinction holders prize giving ceremony. Hope that when I receive tr vicky's text, I won't break down again like today. Please. I need a merit. Jona was there comforting me and he said that he had a strong instinct that I will get a merit. And he said that whatever he thinks, it always comes true. That cheered me up a little, but I'm still hoping really hard that I really WILL get a merit like what he said. I don't want just a pass in my final exam.

Learnt something today, never and I mean NEVER expect so much. It will just strike you hard in your face at the end of the day.

♥Jolene 6:43 PM

Friday, December 9, 2011

This marks the end

Been ages since I blogged. November just passed by like that, fast isn't it? I've done many things and many things have happened. Okay maybe not in November, just early December.

Went out with shuhui for movie and then my house, had gz lessons, went out with yl and hy for a movie and lunch, had gz lessons, went out with joy for movie and catch up, had gz lessons, went out with shuhui again for movie and had gz lessons once again.

I didn't have much chance to practise for my gz exam in November because my sis was having her exams. It's either she's at home, or when she's not at home, I'm outside. So yeah, even if I did practise it would be without my nails, and that totally defeats the purpose of practising cos the feeling and the difficulty is different. When I need to prepare for my gz exam, my sis would be having her school exams -.- It has always been the case for these four years. Oh well. So I decided to just chiong after her exams which ended like in end November.

Practised really hard during that period of time. Went to tr vicky's bukit batok house (it's really damn far, east meets west) twice consecutively on monday and tuesday with siaohui. Her house is awesome! Super many gz man. And her house has sound proof walls :( I think hahaha! If only I had them too. So that one and a half hour's trip there wasn't wasted at all :) Had lesson and practised for around two hours at her house on monday and just went to practise at her house on tuesday. Tuesday was quite fun, got a lift from siaohui's mum! Had swensens for lunch and they had that promotion where we could choose either a side, drink or ice cream for every main course ordered. I didn't really have the appetite then but I just tried to eat as much cos firstly, I didn't eat complete meals the day before (only finished half of lunch and dinner) and secondly, I didn't want to waste the food because siaohui's mum treated us. So when we reached tr vicky's house we were all damn full and I suggested standing up and play gz! Hahaha okay crap idea. Was super stressed up at her house at first when I was practising so tr vicky gave me a dark chocolate to calm me down. Then we started chatting and I got less tensed. Then me and siaohui started distressing by playing other songs like ztf and yizu HAHAHA. Great time! When it was time to go I was a little reluctant cos practising at her house and practising at home is different. At her house, there were people practising hard with you, giving you advice and comforting you when you're all stressed up. But at home, it's just me, my room and my gz. Couldn't ask for help either cos no one else in the house understands gz except me. I don't like the feeling of me cooping up in my room myself. But since my gz exam was just days away, I had no choice.

Was super stressed up from Monday onwards I have no idea why. I've been taking grading exams for three times already and this forth time I was exceptionally stressed and nervous. It wasn't only me who said this. My mum, my ahma and tr vicky also realised this. Everyone told me it was just another exam. But to me, it wasn't just any other exam, it's my final diploma gz grading exam. I couldn't just take it lightly. Didn't had breakfast, only ate half of my lunch and dinner, had sleepless nights for the past few days before the exam. Had the super sian feeling and didn't feel like talking much either. Everyday it's just me, half-eaten lunch, gz practice at tr vicky's house, half-eaten dinner, practise gz in my room, 星洲之夜, (which I didn't really have the mood to watch, just watching for the sake of watching) my bed and sleepless nights. All I thought about when I closed my eyes was the exam. Couldn't even stop thinking about it for a moment. This was the first time I behaved like that as compared to the previous years. I'm really lucky to have such a great teacher (great is simply not good enough a word to describe her) who have been by my side from the start to the finish, giving me advice, comforting me when I'm down and have been commenting on my fb posts telling me not to be so stressed up. It's really very heart warming and I never regretted taking up lessons from her. Never ever. And to all my friends out there who were there for me too, thank you. Really appreciate it :)

Yesterday was the grading exam, but I didn't have the mood to post this yesterday. Was kinda down. Woke up at 8 and started panicking so I decide to maple to calm myself down. Packed everything and headed to NAFA campus 3 in my ahma's friend's cab. There was a little jam otw and I was super worried although we were already quite early. When I reached the holding room, the only thing on my mind was to start practising. After awhile tr vicky came over and started to comfort me again. Hahaha she brought lots of stuff there : hot tea, dark chocolates and HEAT PACKS. Hahaha I think heat packs damn funny cos we're actually using it in SINGAPORE. But we really needed it cos the holding room was so cold and everyone was very nervous so we got even colder. When I heard my name being called my heart skipped a beat. Literally. Had so many helpers to bring my three gz and the jiao into the exam room. Those that weren't helping to carry like siaohui, jing jie and nicholas came with us to the exam room. Tr vicky say I have a fan club! We waited outside and the guy suddenly told us that he saw my exam timing wrongly and called me out earlier. Blur guy! But he quite cute eh siaohui thinks so too ^~^ Tr vicky said my whole face turned red and I was very 温暖 hahaha I can be used as a heat pack :p She tried to cool me down with her super cold hands HAHAHA. Zalynn was super scared too and when tr vicky asked why, she said she was scared for me aww so cute right! Made a new friend who's like four years younger than me :p When it was time, we went in with the gz and I just stood at a side watching them putting the gz and jiao down. I sat down, and the examiners suddenly asked me : 你可以报一下你要弹得曲子吗? Then I totally shocked tio and I was like huh? Then one of them smiled then say : 你今天要弹什么歌曲? HAHA then I finally got it and told them the pieces I was going to play. But I stoned a little cos I almost forgot what my lian xi qu was called -.- I wasn't the only one HAHAHA siaohui and nicholas also! I guess my lianxiqu was okay, played almost perfect with like one mistake. Chun dao xiang jiang was hmm okay at first, but when the examiners told me to skip to kuai ban I almost fainted hahaha. I started playing so fast that my fingers got tangled up at one part :( Oh well it's over anyway. Huan xiang qu the examiners just told me to start from kuai ban :( GAH my man ban I can play well and they don't want to listen what is this man :( The beat gz that part got one mistake I hope they didn't realise cos they were like chatting with each other -.- HAHA and heng before the fan yin part they told me to stop HENG AH if not my hands will tremble like siao. Other than these mistakes I totally cannot rmb anything already hahaha. Ohyah I think I played with too much strength that the gz keep having that PIAK sound :X And my huan xiang qu gz was shaking like hell so I had to support it with my left leg and I think it looked real ugly :( When I came out of the room, siaohui said I was feeling damn hot and asked if I'm having fever or what. That was when I couldn't control myself and cried. Kept avoiding other people cos the more they asked if I'm alright, the more I'll cry :/ The younger kids were all staring at me like so scared for me hahaha cute! After a hug from tr vicky, I felt much better. It was time to worry about the others! Jing jie played very well eh! Tr vicky said he played much better than her when she took grade 9. Nicholas played not bad at first but at the later part the mistakes started coming in :X Siaohui did great in my opinion! Bet she's gonna get a distinction again this year :) The others I don't really know them so didn't go hear them play.

I texted tr vicky when me and my mum got on a cab home and she said I did fine. Our examiner called her and told her that all her students passed. But still dk if it's pass, merit, or distinction. Hahaha and the examiner was also very touched to see all of us helping each other carry gz here and there :) Additional marks? Hahaha k lame. Reached home, changed and went to bed. Wasn't tired then, just didn't want to let them see me cry. I don't know what has gotten into me, but I just kept crying cos I was really frantic about the results, which will be released this Sunday. But I'm okay now, after a good night's rest (no insomnia ^^) and the many comforting messages/tweets/fb comments that came from my friends. Love them really very much :) It's always at these moments where you find out who your true friends really are.

Sunday oh sunday please hurry come! I'm wishing for a phone call from tr vicky like last year. But if I don't, a merit will do. Just not a pass, like two years ago from that biased-against-girls examiner.

♥Jolene 9:42 AM

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Just came back from jimmy choo's wedding lunch at The Regent Singapore! I think it's damn cool hahaha his mum is ahma's good friend! So we got invited :) The only teachers that knew me who went was peggy yap, mr teo, ng ah kay and darrell tan! Hahaha when I went over to say hi to them all of them were shocked as to why I was there. Then I had to repeat that my ahma is a close friend of jimmy choo's mum! Hahaha darrell tan was the most shocked one, he was like "Er. You here for the wedding too? O.O" With that can't-believe-I-was-there face. So took photo with them :) Then when jimmy choo came I went over to take photo with him and he told the other teachers that were talking to him that I'm from cch! Then they stared at me with the O.O face again. Isit really that hard to believe? :( Anyway, lo chee lin went too! And so did the ex vp (forgot her name). Mr Pang, Mr Goh and Mdm Tan went too! Hahaha cooooool first time going for a teacher's wedding lunch and also first time seeing so many teachers at a wedding lunch :D Doubt there'll be anymore of this kind of thing already! I still think it's so cool HAHA. After the whole thing ended when walking out of the ballroom, jimmychoo shook my hand then told me to not to tell anyone about his wedding lunch (which I already did HAHA) and not to post photos onto fb (which I also already did oops HAHAHAHA)! Funny! His face was all red so I guess he drank alot during the lunch. So I guess now he confirm remembers me liao :p And all the videos that they showed us during the lunch super funny lah. Both of them so sweet aww :)

Alright shall stop here :)

♥Jolene 6:18 PM

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Hell yeah man Chinese Os is finally over! It's like finally the official start of the holidays :) Although I have to start pia-ing for final gz exam, at least it's one burden less already :) Cmon jolene chee go go go! Last shot man and there'll never ever ever ever be another gz exam already! LAST CHANCE.

Anyway, was thinking of the thing kylin said earlier after the chinese Os paper. Yep, you ain't talking to us much now and I don't really care luh. I know both of us kept not going lunch or go ou with you all but please lah, chinese Os was around the corner and we didn't want to get distracted and spend too much time on lunch so never join you guys lah. Then every single time your go out = movie and the genres you like doesn't mean other people also like. Then people don't want to go you not happy. Zzz we owe you isit? I totally don't mind losing a friend like you. Bye

♥Jolene 8:30 PM