Finally got back gz results today. Was totally worrying for the whole day. Tr vicky said that she'll collect the results at 1+ and I told her to tell me my results after she collect and she said okay. So when it was 1+ I didn't get a sms from her. 2+, nothing. 3+ 4+ 5+ still nth. I was really nervous by that time so decided to text her. Then it hit me again. I got a pass with 78 marks. I admit I was really down at that time. Although I was still outside with val and xw, I couldn't help but be abit dao :/ Val keep telling me don't sad don't sad but I wasn't just sad, I was very disappointed. Sh, siaohui and yt kept texting me to comfort me and surprisingly this time I didn't feel like crying. (maybe I'm wiped dry) My heart just felt really heavy that's all.
After taking notes/books from val at her house, headed home. Tr vicky texted me and her words totally comforted me alot and put my heart at ease. Lian xi qu 19/20, cdxj 29/40 and hxq 30/40. Lian xi qu totally did me proud this time, almost perfection! The other two songs were disappointing though :/ Hmm one of the comments was that my feeling wasn't good. For hxq how can I have feelings when the examiners told me to start from kuai ban lol -.- And I didn't know what went wrong with my cdxj :/ Oh well it's over!!!! Tr vicky told me to learn from past experiences and that we've got to learn to let go. This is to make sure that my students won't suffer like me next time. And also setting an achievable goal. Maybe I thought too lightly of diploma grade cos I really didn't expect it to be that harsh. The higher I aimed, the more I fell hard. She went through this before to, so she's just the right person who can tell me these and make me learn from all these shit. Felt really good after that and I totally cheered up. She's always giving me good advices and teach me stuff outside gz context. Really cherish her presence and I'm really glad that I met her. Pouring out my troubles to her whenever needed, she doesn't find it a nuisance too but instead, try her best to cheer me up once again with her funny antics :) Through this (disappointing and painful) experience, I felt that she knows me better now and we got closer too. Why didn't we have all these fun earlier when I was still taking my previous grades but only happen now when I'm done taking all my grades? It's a pity I'm only going to take up a few more lessons from her on how to teach other students. But anyway, it's better late than never. This experience is really a blessing in disguise for me. Really learnt alot from her :) Thanks tr vicky love you alot! :)
♥Jolene 11:00 PM